I’ve experienced a lot of heartache recently. There have been some days when I felt like I was drowning in it.
I’ve felt so lost and hopeless. How are we ever going to get through this? I feel like I have no future. Nobody cares what I’m going through. No one understands.
Then I remember what I prayed in the ICU waiting room.
“God whatever You are going to teach us through this, please let our hearts be opened to it. I know all things work together for good to those who love you”.
And when we got home from the hospital.. “God I don’t want to just get through this, I want to come out stronger. I want to learn and grow even in the most trying circumstances”.
In other words, I don’t want to just weather the storm, I want to dance in the rain.
I’ve repeated over and over to myself, this is just a moment. It’s not forever.
Sometimes pulling myself up from feeling so down is more than I can do in my own strength.
That’s when I turn to His promises.
“Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us”. Romans 8:37.
I can be more than a conqueror. I can more than conqueror my despair. I can more than conqueror my fear. I can more than conqueror my weak human emotions that lead me astray. I can be more than a conqueror.
I don’t have to just hang on and weather this storm. I can rise above it. I can go beyond my own despair and reach out to someone else’s hurting heart.
I don’t have to spend my days sniffling about how no one cares, which is a lie anyway. I don’t have to whine to God that I feel like I have no future. When He clearly says,
“For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. Jeremiah 29:11
I once heard a missionary from Haiti tell about the work they were doing among the people there. He told how the Haitian people have a saying.
That’s it. God knows. And it’s enough. It’s enough that He knows my pain. It’s enough that He understands.
Nobody has to understand everything I’m going through. Because Christ chose to enter into my suffering. He knows.
Sometimes it’s hard to find that strength to rise. Sometimes you just want to wallow in your self pity and when that gets to hard, find something to distract yourself from everything going on around you. There is something that you, and I need to remind ourselves.
“The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit”. Psalms 34:18
We don’t have to just hang on, because He is right there ready to save a broken heart. He’s ready to heal a crushed spirit. He’s especially close to the hurting.
If we let Him be our sustenance, we can go beyond our own pain and enter someone else’s.
“…Who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God”. 2 Corinthians 1:4.
As I’ve felt the sting of pain, I’ve found myself much more sensitive to the pain of others. I can be thankful for what I’ve been through because it has taught me so much. I want to point others to the hope that is in Christ, because this hope has done so much for me and I want others to experience it too.
I’ve learned that when I’m having a hard time, hanging in there, isn’t the answer. Growing and learning to thrive despite the circumstances, that’s the answer.
If you have dealt with something similar, or if you found this post encouraging please let me know in the comment section below.